Christmas

Christmas time is almost here
so many cakes and goods are near
I’m trying to keep a level head
but i think it'd rather eat that bread
just one more week and Santa’s here
it's then I’ll jump and scream and cheer
I hope to make it through this mess
weighing just a little less
if i don't gain I’ll be so happy
I’ll probably write a poem that's sappy
just one more week till Christmas time
here is where I’ll end my rhyme!

merry christmas!

Short & Sweet

It's 5 AM and I’m just walking out the door to go to work so I don't have much time but I wanted to get a post in. I hope everyone is doing great this month. I’m going to try like heck to get in and read some of your blogs soon. :0) Things are crazy for me right now. Big projects and mandatory training at work; my husband may get picked up with the government for a job!!! YAY!!! He's been trying for well over a year. My daughter is getting SO big and can now roll front to back, back to front and either direction. Big accomplishments there. I'm doing pretty well this month. Not as well as I’d like but still making progress. I’ve been working TONS and TONS and I’m pretty burnt out. However, Jan is coming quickly and I’ll be getting a raise so that will help out tremendously. No more over time for me unless I want to at that point. Right now I have to work it so we can make ends meet. It’s hard sometimes but totally worth it. I am just lucky in times like these that a) I have a job & b) I can work overtime. I know there are a lot more people out there (like my hubby) that don’t have either of those luxuries. Well I’d better get my butt to work. Be blessed!!!

December Goal

At the end of the day after the weigh in I had this big AH HA moment and realized that I’m a complete idiot! I really could have won the over all for this contest if i had just buckled down last month… SERIOUSLY! I guess each of you may be thinking the same thing. But alas, I totally slacked and now I’d have to do some serious damage or hope for others to gain in order to win the overall prize. The thing is that I feel like I’ve really gotten to know many of you and I don’t want anyone to gain this month, so… I hope that all of you lose big and that I will do the same. I’m going to set a goal of 12 lbs. this month. It is what I did in the second month and it totally possible if I stay focused. Wish me luck!

The big weigh in...

So tomorrow is the big day and i'm not thrilled about my weight loss this month. With turkey and pie and all the great fixins this end of month has been hard, hard, hard! Still, I'm sure some of you rocked it in spite of all of the yummy temptations! I didn't do as well as i'd like on scale weight loss but i am down one more pant size so that's GREAT!!! I’m actually just praying that when I step on that scale tomorrow I will indeed have a loss to report. I’m not positive that it will tip in my favor though. We’ll see!
I went shopping on BLACK FRIDAY and bought some really great new clothes! I really need some new jeans but I’ve decided to wait just a couple of weeks and see if I can push through into yet one size smaller. I’m going to look a little slobish until then but I think it will be worth it in the end. Wish me luck.
Saturday night my husband and I went out to this fabulous dinner and dance reception. I was trying to find something to wear and figured what the heck I’d try on that little black dress of mine. It was a closer fit than I expected by far and yet I still couldn’t get the darn thing zipped up. I’ve got one month to go and I’m sure I pull it off. :0)
Check out my ticker and you’ll see that Christmas is just around the corner. This means, candy and pie and all the yummy holiday treats all over again. I’ve decided to go back to what I was doing and only allow myself one dessert a week. I’m hoping that this will keep me picky about what one yummy thing I allow myself and keep me conscious of not eating unneccisary and unaccounted calories.
I hope tomorrow goes well for you all but if it’s not such a great month I hope you’ll still weigh in and push through the end of the year to finish off strong.

Turkey Day...

I just wanted to take a few minutes and wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving! I hope that your day is filled with good food, lots of friends and family and even more fun! I hope everyone decided to splurge just a little for pumpkin pie or whatever your favorite is and that we’ll all get back on track tomorrow.

Oh so STUCK!!!

Well I only have a second so this is going to be short and sweet and to the point... my scale is oh so stuck! No, really it's the scale! I promise… it’s the scale! Ok, so maybe it’s my fat butt drinking coffee and not eating nearly as much as I should. Anyway, I’m actually dropping body fat and inches but my scale hasn’t moved all that much. I know I’m not working as hard as I could be. Seem to be going in waves this month. Working my bum off one week and nothing the next week I think I lost my motivation or determination or maybe I just found a whole bunch of excuses and I’m pulling them out of my pocket and throwing them around. Huh? Well I said I’d keep it short so that’s all for now folks. Sorry I haven’t been commenting much. Too much work and not enough play makes Mindy a boring (and apparently not much skinnier) girl.

30 Never Looked Sexier!!!

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to Mindy!!!

Thirty sure looks sexy!

Today is my birthday and YES it’s THE BIG 3-0!!! People keep talking about how 30 was really hard for them but I don’t feel a day over 29. Besides… who knew 30 would look this good? :0)

All I wanted for my birthday was a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting and a thick layer of gooey chocolate cream in the middle! But, since my daughter is still preventing me from eating chocolate I settled for pancakes for breakfast. Went all out with butter and rich maple syrup! YUMMY!!!!

This week has been ok, I’m back down from my small gain over the last week but I think my scale is broken or possibly just stuck on this damn number… I’m thinking someone else needs to come over and stand on it to make sure it’s functioning properly. Better yet maybe not, because if someone does and it really is working, it may shatter my broken scale illusion and open my eyes to the reality that…
I’M SLACKING BIG TIME THIS WEEK!!! LOL!

Back to my birthday, my parents gave me money to get a new cell phone, my husband took me to breakfast and gave me the gift of time alone to take a long bath so I could relax and unwind (much needed), my friend treated me to breakfast the other day and I’m going out with friends to dinner tomorrow night. Along with that it looks like God gave me snow… I’m not entirely sure if that’s a great birthday present or not. I’m kinda partial to sunshine and long walks with my daughter. However, since God usually knows best I’m just going to thank him for it and move on. I used to really hate the snow until one day I looked up and the flakes were sparkling in the sunlight as they fell. I suddenly realized… Snow isn’t the horrible icky stuff I thought it was… snow is just God scrap booking with glitter!

Can’t wait for the weekend! I hope that all of you enjoyed my birthday as much as I did!

What a week

So I had this big crappy thing happen at work last week so I decided to hell with it… I’m not going in. So I had this whole week off and it was wonderful and awful all at the same time. Wonderful because I got to spend TONS of time with my baby girl, awful because now I don’t ever want to go back to work. Wonderful because I was able to wean myself back off coffee (I was getting out of control with it again), awful because I didn’t eat nearly as much as I should. Wonderful because I got to go walking in the sunshine with my little girl, awful because I didn’t eat enough food to sustain my level of activity and I’ve gained instead of lost! UGH!
The biggest thing I really learned from this week as far as my success at loosing is that I MUST eat a lot of food if I really want to lose (healthy, nutrient dense calories of course) and that eating 6 times a day even if my proportions are not perfect has me losing 3 times as much as when I eat 3 times a day. I’ve got the rest of the weekend to spend with my girl then Monday I’m back to work… back to 10 hour days 6 days a week. I love it and hate it at the same time. I love that I’ve got a good job making good money and that in this economy I’m able to work overtime every weekend. I love that my husband is able to stay home and take care of our little girl… but I wish that I could be the one to stay home with her. But no day care for this little girl and that makes my very happy!

Well, that was sorta like a big poor picked on me blog wasn’t it? Well, I guess that’s how I’m feeling today. My next blog will be a smiley happy message OK.
Later girls! Hope you are all have an awesome weekend!

Holy Cow!!! Is this month over already?

I can’t believe how quickly the month of October has come and gone. Everyone told me that once you have children time really starts to fly. I always thought they were exaggerating but HOLY COW is October really over? Halloween was yesterday as you all know. I spent the day working overtime and spent the evening at my parents’ house. Guess how much Halloween candy I ate… NONE!!! Not even one piece. I did have a little incentive because all my parents had to hand out were chocolate bars and I haven’t eaten chocolate since July 23rd. Seriously! That’s right 101 days, chocolate free. I’m not talking about only a little here or there I’m talking about NOT ONE TASTE of chocolate since July 23rd. I am a machine!! LOL Ok I must confess, I’m not a machine at all, I’m nursing and chocolate makes my baby sick so I don’t eat it. Most days I don’t miss it but some days I really, really do! She’s totally worth it. Here she is in her little Halloween costume. She lasted in this thing for about 32 seconds. Just long enough to snap a few pictures. Isn’t she adorable! I can’t wait for next year when we get to dress her all up. It will be so fun.

Anyway, today is a new day and the start of a new month. I’m weighing in this morning at 314.4 not as low as I’d like but I’m making progress. I hope all of you will keep an eye out for my “Good Bye 300” blog. I know it’s coming soon and I can’t wait till it does! Good luck to all of you. This is another holiday month so I hope we can all resist the mouthwatering temptations of home made pie at least until thanksgiving day.

Look at me now!!!

Today is a GREAT day!!! A few days after I had my baby I went shopping. I was desperate for pants and sick and tired of wearing my maternity gear. While I was there I found a rack of pants for $6 and so I immediately tore through them. I found a pair of pants and a pair of shorts that fit me then so that was great but I also picked up a pair of pants that were WAY too small. No matter what I tried I couldn’t even get them past my thighs. Determined to lose weight and loving the $6 price tag I bought them. I told myself that I would be wearing them before Christmas. Well guess what!!! These are them!!! This morning while getting ready for church I realize that all of my pants are dirty. So I thought what the heck and put these on. To my great delight they went on easily. These pictures don’t really do them justice because they have cute little pin stripes that I don’t think show up in here. They are fantastic!

I love this competition and the support and motivation you all provide. Since I was taking pictures I took some in my jeans… these are the ones I was jumping for joy about getting into not too long ago. Well now they to big!!! They just look sloppy when I wear them so I’m going to have to dig through my closet to find some that are smaller. Go me!!! :0)

One Pound at a Time!

Well, I’m not feeling quite like the big "BLAH, BLAH LOSER" that I was last week. Work is still stressing me out but mentally I’m pretty sure I’ve made it over that lump of frustration that was pushing me down. I want to say thank you to all of you that sent me encouraging comments after my last post. I swear it was all of you that helped me make it through without gaining 10 lbs. :0) I did lose a couple pounds even and that was good because I wasn’t sure that I would be going anywhere. I weighed in today at 319.6!!! GOOD BYE 320’s!!! WOO HOO!!! I’m NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER going to see them again!

By the way… has everyone seen Karilynn’s AMAZING & BEAUTIFUL family pictures? If you haven’t then you must look at them. I don’t know about all of you but that is some serious motivation! Look at how far she’s come in a year. I wanted to publicly say thanks to Kari for not only getting me into the competition but for being a constant inspiration and encourager through out! I love you girl!!!

BLAH BLAH BLAH

THIS WEEK FREAKING SUCKS!!! OK LAST WEEK KINDA SUCKED TOO!!! MY SCALE IS NOT MOVING! I'M TIRED, FRUSTRATED AND I WORK TOO DAMN MUCH! I MISS MY DAUGHTER AND MY HUSBAND AND ALL I WANT AT THE END OF MY 10 HOUR DAY IS A COLD BEER AND A TUB OF BEN AND JERRY'S!

Little Black Dress

This is my little black dress. I know this picture does it NO justice but it has a Marilynn Monroe quality to it. It's SUPER cute on... when it fits that is. I bought this, to go to a wedding, years ago and wore it only a couple of times. My goal is to go to a New Years Eve party wearing this dress! I can't wait!

What the hell! Right?

Ok ladies I’ve decided it’s time to get down and dirty!

Up until this point I’ve been very careful about what I’ve put on my blog as far as weight and stuff goes. I haven’t linked the biggest loser blog page to mine in an effort to keep those not in this contest from seeing it. I have this insane fear that people that don’t “really need to know” will see my weight on there and look at me differently. I have friends and family that read this blog and I guarantee none of them realize how much I really weigh. I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY wanted to keep it that way. Well that is until today anyway. Today something changed! I’m not really sure what but here is what happened.

Every other Friday when I work there is only myself and one other guy in the whole building. I love these days because it give me TONS of time to get stuff done that I’ve been putting off or that requires some quite research time. It also gives me lots of time to think and reflect. I didn’t plan on thinking about this contest but since it’s the beginning of the month I found myself doing just that. I was thinking about where I have been and where I’m at… more importantly where I want to be and I realized something. I’m exactly where I want to be. At a starting point.

October 1st was yet another starting point for me. I was thinking about the past month and being really hard on myself because I didn’t show a higher weight loss. I was thinking and overanalyzing the choices I made and nit-picking even the slightest error in judgment. But holy crap… look at the inches I’ve lost this month! I’m beating myself up because the scale didn’t move enough and ignoring the 2 pant size drop. What the heck? Sometimes I think about 3 years ago when I lost “this weight” or “that weight” or weighed “this much” or “that much”. I get caught up in the “used to be’s” and the “might have beens”. I can spend hours second guessing myself and the choices I’ve made over the past couple years. But it doesn’t really get me anywhere. Today I realized that thinking about the past, especially when it’s a negative thought process, only does one thing: Takes my eyes off of my future! What is the point if looking back makes you feel crappy when looking to the future is SO full of promise?

So here I am… at a starting point. This is me in ALL my glory. My current weight: 326.6 lbs.

My height: 5’ 10.5” and these are my “before” and “current” pictures. I must admit that it would have been much harder to post these pictures without having some current pictures to go with but, this is still VERY difficult for me!
However, I’m finished! I’m finished worrying who might see my true weight and gasp in surprise or cringe in disgust. I’m finished because, I’m finished being over 300 lbs.
Hell I’m even finished with being over 250!!!
SO HERE I AM!!!

My goal for this month is to look to the future.
Each day I get a new starting point and each day:
I’m going to make better choices than the one before it.
I’m going to walk faster and run farther.
I’m going to smile more and bitch less.
I’m going to set at least one goal for that day and accomplish it!
I’m going to read one chapter in my bible.
I’m going to pray.
I’m sure I’ll think of more to add to this list but I think this is a good start. Don’t you?

For Karilynn

I'd like to formally thank Karilynn for the brief and yet scintillating mention of my name in her recent blog “For Melissa”. I’d like to go on record by saying that although it is true I made out with her “now gay” HS boyfriend I’m pretty sure he was gay the whole time she was making out with him as well. :0)
LIFE: it comes at ya!

Oh and about this month I’m ending it with only about a 5.8 pound loss (it was 6.4 in my first pic but i forgot my spoon and when i re-did the pic it seems i gained. EEK!). I know that’s not going to get me in the top three but I also know this… I ROCK! I’ve managed to steadily if though slowly lower my weight and I’m keeping it off! But even more than that the inches seem to be just falling off me! I’ve found EVEN MORE pants that are fitting me now that I had no hope of buttoning merely weeks before. WHOOT WHOOT! I’m still fired up and VERY excited to start October. I’m back to work full-time and I now get paid to go to the gym for 3 hours a week. I love working for the government! :0) In addition to that my sister, who is an avid marathon runner, has asked me to run a 10K with her early next year. Although the prospect of that is, at present, scary as hell it also gives me something to work toward. Wish me luck!

I scream! You scream! We all scream for Ice Cream!

So, I’m not the type of person that can deny myself completely of all things yummy. If I try to do that, I end up eating twice as much as I would if I had no restriction at all. My solution to this is to allow myself 1 dessert per week with no regrets and no negative self talk. I find that in doing so I am MUCH choosier about the dessert that I ultimately end up eating. Every sweet thing that crosses my path becomes a 20 minute internal debate before I sink my teeth into it. This is excellent because usually during that debate I can talk myself right out of the desire to “cheat”. Thoughts like, “is this ___(fill in the blank with the item)___ worth losing my free dessert over?” Usually the answer is no so I move on.

Well the other day I chose to eat Ben & Jerry’s Key Lime Pie ice cream. It’s a lovely ice cream. I discovered it shortly before starting this competition and I’m sure I must have eaten 3 or 4 whole pints in that week alone. I LOVE ICE CREAM!!! Always have and probably always will. Ben & Jerry… they are some of my best friends. Just ask my hips and butt because they’ve been gaining ground thanks to those two guys for years! :0)

MY BREAK THROUGH: I opened up that pint of creamy ice cream and started to eat it. Usually if I am having a dessert I’m having it all. But this time I didn’t. I got about 1/3 or the way through that pint of ice cream and realized that I was finished! Done! I had, had enough ice cream to satisfy my craving and I didn’t need to eat any more. Now in the past I would have set this thought aside and pushed through to the bottom of the container. I would have been determined not to waist my dessert with a mere fraction of the total contents. But this time I STOPPED! I put the lid on and put it away! Then guess what else happened. To my utter surprise I was not haunted by the ice cream looming in my freezer. In fact it didn’t bother me at all that it was there. One week later when it was time for my free dessert again I simply opened it up and ate some more. It was awesome!

I'm On A Roll… Get Up I’m Hungry!

Get it? If someone says, “I’m on a roll.” I like to reply, “Get up I’m hungry!” As in, “Get off the roll so I can eat it!” LOL! I think I’m funny.

Ok so I’m not on a roll but I’m sporting one!

This is me and this is my totally fabulous spare tire I havebeen carrying around since my baby was born (July). The amazing thing: IT’S SHRINKING!!!

I had my husband take these pictures today because these jeans ACTUALLY FIT!!! Just 2 weeks ago, that’s right just 14 days ago; I could not even button these up!

I’m not sure what came over me but this morning I decided I’d put them on, just to see. I almost wet my pants when they not only buttoned but they buttoned easily! I jumped around shouting and cheering at this huge improvement. Just last week my husband took all of my measurements and I was horrified at what they were. I was feeling pretty bad about it… you may all remember my fatty, fat, fat blog. Anyway, now I’m SOOOOO glad that I did that and wish I had done it sooner because obviously I’m changing and gaining ground. (Or should I say “loosing” it!)

Also, my scale has barely been moving but it is holding steady and that makes me VERY happy because that means the weight is actually gone. I’m not just fluctuating because of water weight or something. I was telling Karilynn I feel like something has clicked. I’m not sure when or what exactly it is but at some point I stopped just going through the motions and now I’m ALL FIRE UP!!!

So, look out ladies because I’m feeling good and working hard. If you’re not feeling that kind of energy I pray that God will bless you with it from this point forward! Love to all and many thanks for all of the support! I think this group ROCKS!

Walk On

I got a new pair of shoes this week. They’re great shoes! Trail runners, water resistant, excellent support, and bright orange! Plus they were on sale. I don’t know if it gets any better than all of that. HOWEVER, two days ago when I went walking I wore short socks and since they are new and not broken in my beautiful new shoes were rubbing bad on the backs of my ankles. I got about 2 miles from home and realized it was starting to hurt. Nothing to do but to walk home right? I got to the end of my road and could go no further. I took off my beautiful shoes and put them in my stroller and walked the rest of the way in my little black socks. Let me tell you the pavement was freaking HOT!!! So I traded one pain for another. When I got home I finally looked at my heels and there I’ve got blisters the size of quarters! Ok maybe the size of nickels but still HUGE!!!

Last night we went to my parents for dinner and I didn’t get out on my walk before dinner so I went down into my moms basement to use her treadmill. I found huge band-aids and wore thick socks but my blisters popped and the pain is INTENSE! But I pushed through and walked and walked. I walked for what felt like 27 years, because my feet were killing me, only to look down and see I’d only gone 2 miles. Merely half the distance I went yesterday. I read about so many of you running for 4 -5 miles or more and I’m thinking. I can’t even walk 2 miles? UGH!!!! Well I'm hoping that doing something is better than nothing. I'm also praying that these heal quickly! Until then I guess I just have to walk on.

Seriously? We’re fighting over a waffle? UGH!!!

Ok so my friend and I have a side bet going on our diets. My husband has developed menus for both of us and in an effort to stick with it we’re doing a little competition. We get a point each time we eat exactly what’s on our menu. On Sept 20th whoever has the most points will treat the other person to a $50 outfit at Lane Bryant! (WE LOVE LANE BRYANT!!!) As of last weekend I’m TOTALLY loosing and as far as I can see I’m still behind.

All of that to say this:

This morning I wake up with a MAJOR craving for waffles. My husband comes upstairs and I ask him if he’ll make me breakfast. He enthusiastically tells me he’ll make pancakes and I’m like, “pancakes would be good but I’d really like a waffle”. Regardless, pancake OR waffle, this fantasy was short lived because we don’t have anything in the house to make either. I said, “Well how about eggs? Then I could be on menu still.” But alas, NO EGGS!!! He decides that he can go to the store to get ingredients but I have a better idea. I coolly suggest that we go out to breakfast. I say something like, “If I’m going to loose a point I may as well get a really good waffle.” That did it! I must have offended him because suddenly he’s all huffy and going off about how we don’t have money to go to breakfast. Now I’m confused… 10 seconds ago you were headed to the store for groceries but we don’t have money for breakfast? Well apparently those are two totally different things and I was completely insane for thinking they weren’t. So I say, “Don’t worry about it. I’ll just have a freaking protein shake.” The results: he’s stomping around all bitter and angry because I won’t let him make me breakfast and I’m thinking, “Seriously? We’re fighting over a waffle?” UGH!

Fatty, Fat, Fat...

That’s how I feel today! Fatty fatty boba-latty and so forth. I, like so many of you, got down and dirty and took my measurements. My husband helped me with this and needless to say it was less than exciting!!! I HATE to see the changes in my body especially when they are negative changes. His response was, "WOW, you seem SOOOOO much smaller to me today than in those last few days of the pregnancy. I wonder what your measurments were then. Hmmm?" I know he didn't mean anything by it. I have to admit I've been thinking the same thing. Still, it's a sucky thought.
Yesterday I was feeling like a rock star. Today not so much. I have decided to hide my scale. I’m putting it in my basement. This way I have got to REALLY want to stand on it otherwise I won’t bother. I’m not one of those people that can weigh themselves everyday. I know how much a person can fluctuate in a day. In my mind I have this information but my heart seems to forget. When I’m down it sings with delight but one tenth of one pound shows back up and my heart breaks. Then here comes the fatness and the fat thoughts and the fat fatty fat, fat. So to hell with the scale! I’m doing the deeds… DIET, EXERCISE and LOTS OF WATER. I'm going to view this as a starting point and nothing else. (That's what I keep telling myself anyway.) I’ll weigh myself again next week or something.

To eat or not to eat? The truth about caloric intake!

Ok do you all want the truth? If you truly want your body to burn fat and maintain muscle mass then you must consume as many calories as you are burning in a day. How do you know how many you are burning? Trainers and nutritionalist will use your RMR. Your what? Your RMR is your Resting Metabolic Rate. You can go to gyms or a nutritionalist to get an RMR test. This will tell you how many calories you are burning (roughly) per day. To find your RMR they hook you up to a machine and have your lay at rest for a set period of time. Then they calculate how many calories per minute you burn while completely at rest, multiply that by the total number of minutes in the day and Ta-Da: your RMR.
Now let’s say your RMR is 1700 Calories per day. They ask about your “level of activity” and the computer will calculate how many calories it thinks you burn doing low, moderate or high levels of activity. At a moderate level (working out regularly) they would probably say you burn about 2800 calories per day. Then they would take that number and tell you how many calories to restrict to loose weight.

Scientifically speaking: To lose 1 lbs a week you should have a caloric deficit of 500 calories per day. That’s 3500 calories per week which is how much is how much it would take to loose 1 pound of fat. (One pound of fat contains 3500 calories.) Here’s the thing... Once you have reached a certain percent of body fat EVERYTHING you put in your mouth is converted into fat. Once you have restricted your calories so much that your body is in a state of starvation it will stay that way and the BEST thing you can do is to EAT MORE!!! If you think that you want to loose 3 lbs a week so you restrict 1500 cal a day your body will do exactly opposite or what you want. It will store fat not burn it! But if you break out of that starvation mode then it may not just dump 1 pound per week but 3 or 4 with no extra effort on your part.

I know I know it goes against everything you’ve ever heard, everything you’ve ever been taught and most of all your emotions pick up and yell, “This can’t be true! It doesn’t make sense to eat more if you want to loose more!” I was there. When my husband told me all of this, I told him it didn’t make sense. I wanted to eat less and have my body burn up all the freaking fat I was carrying. He said this, “Your body doesn’t have emotions and your body doesn’t think. Your body is a machine! A perfect beautiful and creative machine that will functions that way if you give it everything it needs.” If you give your body all of the carbs, protein and fat that it requires to function well it will do just that. In fact if your body is getting everything it needs then it will stop running in a mode of starvation and begin running like a well oiled machine. It will send out the signals to dump the excess baggage (fat) because it doesn’t need it anymore.

The trick: NUTRIENT DENSE FOODS!!!!!
Good food like grilled chicken rice and vegetables. Also it is CRUCIAL to get Protein, CARBS (good carbs like rice, pasta, even bread if you’re careful and of course fruits and veggies) and FAT!!! That’s right folks you MUST eat fat every day. We all need good essential fatty acids you know the good stuff like Omega 3, 6 and 9. If you don’t eat fat your body will make it!

If you read my comment on Karilynns blog then you know that I am eating approximately 3700 calories per day. That is because I’m burning 3500-3700 calories per day right now. I have not been eating enough and my body, being the perfect machine it is, has been in starvation mode and storing fat like a champ. I’m going to reset my system by eating as much as I’m using. I’ve been at this about a week and going strong. I know most of you are thinking this is the craziest thing you’ve ever heard. But somewhere some of you may be thinking that it makes sense. I will say this, how many trainers that put you on your 1500 calorie diets will guarantee that you loose weight without working out? Have you ever heard of any? They all say work out! Work out! Work out! My husband will guarantee fat loss by eating on his menu even if you don’t change your level of activity at all! So am I crazy? Is he? Ultimately, time will tell. In a couple of weeks I’ll either have lost or gained. You’ll have to wait and see!

Sneaky Little Bastard...

Why is it that every time I put my mind to something these evil thoughts start creeping in. I’m totally geared up and ready to get on track with my diet and suddenly there are Baskin Robin signs EVERYWHERE!!! Things I NEVER eat like potato chips, candy bars and Twinkies suddenly have appeal and seem to be calling my name from ever nook and cranny. Everyone at work has chips and salsa, chocolate bars and salt water taffy on their desk. To top it all of there are 3 rows of GIANT cans of Pepsi filling the vending machines that line the halls at work. As if a cold refreshing Pepsi is not tempting enough now they have shiny, beautiful 16 oz cans. Short of Beer at the gas station I’ve never seen a can this big. All I can say is big blue has never been sexier and just in time for my diet. EEK!!!
Well I’ve decided! It’s the devil! He’s a sneaky little bastard that wants nothing more than for me to fail. He sneaks into my thoughts and is trying to cloud my judgment. Well I got news for you devil, you can tempt all you want but I’m not giving in!

I'm not just talking about it anymore!

Ready Set Go!!!
*I’d like to start off by saying that spelling and grammar are not my strongest features so if you’re way into that… SORRY! But you’ll just have to get over it!*

Hi everyone! This is my very first time blogging EVER so I’m not sure exactly what to write. I promise you there are people falling down dead from shock just by seeing this happen. LOL

I guess I’ll just tell you a bit about me. I’m 29 years old, married and just had a baby girl in July. Isn’t she adorable? I wish that I could say that I’m this heavy because of the pregnancy but the fact is, is that I am 4 lbs less today than the day I got pregnant. Most people would be saying good job that awesome… but hello? Have you seen my weight?
Needless to say I’m not at the peak of fitness but all of that is about to change!

My husband is a personal trainer that specializes in nutrition. I was hesitant to say that because I thought people might think I had an unfair advantage. To those of you that are thinking that again… hello? Have you seen my weight? My husband is an amazing man and incredibly knowledgeable about what he does. I worked with him a couple of years ago and got in the best shape I’ve been since Jr. High but as you can see I gained it all back plus more. Living with him I’ve gained tons of knowledge about health and wellness, specifically about nutrition. I love to talk to people about proper nutrition and proper positioning when working out but often I think the information falls on deaf ears. It’s something like the blind leading the blind. (the over weight instructing the over weight. You get my point.) So, here is the plan. I’m taking all of this knowledge that I have crammed in my head and I’m putting it to work. I’m not just talking about it anymore!!!