My name is Mindy ;0) I'm 31 years old, married to the love of my life and have 1 little girl. My baby girl Jade is AMAZING! By far the greatest thing I've ever done.
Exactly 1 year and 11 month ago (TODAY) I had my little girl and weighed in at an astounding 376 pounds. This was me just before I gave birth:
And this was me just a short time after:
Over the course of the last two years I've competed a lot and won a little. I have had months that I lost 1 pound and months that I lost 18 pounds and did that steadily until about 9 months ago. This was me then:
And this was me just a short time after: Over the course of the last two years I've competed a lot and won a little. I have had months that I lost 1 pound and months that I lost 18 pounds and did that steadily until about 9 months ago. This was me then: 
In October of last year I had some personal struggles that really set me off track. Since then I have steadily gained back roughly 30 pounds. I could do the exact math but it's not that important. The point is I have gained. The good news... I'm still at a BIG loss. I'm down over 50 pounds still and looks like I'll be going down from here. The bad news... This is me NOW:
Yep! I pretty much feel EXACTLY like I look. WOW, I had NO plans to EVER post this picture before I'd stated working and actually accomplished something but here I am adding it to this post.
The thing is; this is the truth. The reality of me right now. There was a time that I would have been ashamed of this. That I would have never EVER said out loud that I was weighing in at 376 pounds or that I'm weighing in at over 320 now. The fear of the response that people may have was overwhelming. Right now, surprisingly all i feel is encouraged. LOL Who would have thought huh?
As you have seen from my last post I was unsure about this competition. Not sure if I would "win" even if I wasn't taking first place. But right now I realize that I already have. Until this moment I didn't realize how competing has already changed me for the positive. I may not be at my goal weight and I'm not even close to skinny but, look at me! I'm amazing and not ashamed of me, even in my failure and I'm way excited to realize it!
I'm not excited that I've gained. I'm mortified that I have been avoiding the scale in an effort to avoid knowing exactly how much. Even more than that, now that I know, now that I've let myself see the number I can also see it when I look in the mirror. That sucks! I wish I had seen it all along... still, I was not willing to do anything about it so it probably wouldn't have mattered.
I see now... and after this so do all of you. I promise you that when you see this picture next month it will be side by side with one that shows amazing loss. Perhaps not in scale weight but in inches FOR SURE (I'm way better at losing inches than I am losing pounds). I can't wait for this month to pass to see how they look.
I'm EXCITED! Hope you are too!
~Good luck~
3 comments:
And you are beautiful and amazing and 50 lbs down from where you were 2 years ago! :) LOVE YOU!
Nice to 'meet' you, Mindy! I'm feelimg some of the same things you are right now. Just know you aren't in this alone! Good luck this month!!
Mindy, let me just say that I am as good as giving compliments as I am at recieving them which means, I suck! I love your post. I think you should be so proud to be where you are now. You know, as the rest of us do, how hard it is to loose weight and keep it off. It is one thing when you are competing against friends for a prize, but it's a whole different ball game when the thrill of winning is gone. Even so, you still are amazing. Everyone else knows it... I hope you do too!
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